I WISH I COULDN'T STILL FEEL YOU BREATHE AND I WISH I COULDN'T STILL SEE YOU SMILE WHEN I CLOSE MY EYES AT NIGHT BECAUSE IT MAKES IT SO HARD TO FALL ASLEEP AND I WISH I DIDN'T HAVE THE SOUND OF YOUR VOICE MEMORIZED AND ALL OF ITS FLUCTUATION AND I WISH I COULD SLEEP IN MY OWN BED AT NIGHT AND I WISH I  COULD JUST NOT HAVE MET YOU BECAUSE YOU DID ME SO WRONG AND I'M UP AT NIGHT WRITING ABOUT YOU WHILE YOU'RE PROBABLY IN HER BED