I never got it until now
Could never see because I was blind
Shut off the feelings I had inside
No perspective- only pride
I’m sorry for being dead inside
It helped me compartmentalize
Without any consequence of what I had done
Until I stared into the star filled night
And realized
I never got it until now
I didn’t wanna see that look in your eyes
As I laughed out loud
And you contemplate
With sorrow strung on your face
I looked straight at you
Without seeing you at all
Because I didn’t want to feel what I had caused
I never got it until now
That I am an emotionally manipulative witch
And by witch I mean *****