I want to die
and I feel like that's a normal feeling
a normal feeling
an emotion
a daily passing
but it's not
it isn't 'supposed' to be

in my dreams, my nightmares
I want to die
and its normal
it's a normal feeling
and I hate it
just as much
as I do right now

death is a normal thing
dying is normal
hate is normal
pills are normal
blood is normal
poison is normal
mania is normal
toxic is normal

I'm choking
I'm choking on what I'm supposed to be
?lamron m'i