what makes you get up and walk to the liquor store
when you can barely get up to do laundry
or god forbid wash a **** dish
can’t you just say
not today?

is it your brain and the way it is wired
with neurons firing and serotonin lowering
needing something anything
does your liver shiver from the weekend before
does your body shake until you get more

or are you just bored and tired of
******* on the couch to the same cheesy 80s **** you got in a bargain bin
i would honestly prefer the latter, as if it is something you could control
but you still manage to ***** all over our ghetto apartment because you couldn’t make it to the bathroom in time
and i spend my nights scrubbing it with dollar store carpet cleaner because my paychecks are used to buy
twelve packs of generic dr. pepper, hamburger helper and chocolate cupcakes for a grown *** man

i had to call your mother a few times because you couldn’t even speak and it scared me
that you could possibly get more stupid
but i am stupid too because i love you and i still
let you play video games and not nag you
at least until you’re sober

i just wait until you pass out oblivious to the damage you’ve done that day
and eat all your ******* cupcakes in revenge.