I'm out here
Where nobody can find me tonight
Swallowing stale raindrops
Looking to the clouds for some kind of sign
Is this a test?
Because I can't help but question my faith in God
I'm losing my mind
And this time it isn't fun.
I let the temptation of the cancerous demon fill my lungs
I need this addiction
To **** this clinching stomach ache
Why do I feel
When I'd rather be numb?
The ghosts of my past wont stop bothering me
When I only want to be alone in my pitiful misery.
My heart is dead but the pain still remains
Maybe I never truly wanted to be saved.