I watch you walk out the door
And all I do is cry
It plays over in my head
And I wish there was never such a thing as goodbye
Because my heart is healing on pieces of shattered ice
It stings and it burns and it's sharper than glass
I fake a smile and live my life
Because I can't hold onto a broken past
And I know even though the days feel empty
And the hours replay thoughts of you in my mind
I'm letting go
But its going to take time
There's no use in convincing someone to love me
Even though I think I need you in my life
I want you more than I've ever wanted anything
The abandonment hurts worse than burning alive
I thought you were different
But you let me down the same way that all the people I ever let my self love did
And I hope someday I can move on
And I hope I can find someone that can love me
Not pretend like they do because they needed me to be there
I don't want to be a doormat, an outlet, someone to take all your anger out on.
I need someone that I can never let down
Even when I'm at my worse
Someone who will hold my heart with security
And I hope I can let myself love again
Because I'm so ******* sick of being broken hearted
And it would be such a shame because I am such a loving person
With so much to give
I'm sick of people saying that they love me
Then breaking my heart and letting me fall down.
I'm sick of being alone
And dreaming of you in my bed
I'm sick of breathing sometimes
I'm just exhausted because this isn't what I wanted
I've never felt so low and down about myself in my entire life