Churning inside, full of guilt and ripped up pain
All I hear in my head is you over and over again
This is a broken record of thoughts
a whole bunch of pain I bought
Ripped my own wounds open and poured the salt in
I sabotaged myself again
This is the break down of me drowning
my self stupidity crowning
Slashes of invisible ink bleed over my skin
I can't believe I let this happen again
Salty tears and metallic taste in my mouth
I want to run
run away from me
I don't want to look in the mirror to see that I ripped open my own wounds and poured the salt in
I sabotaged myself again
I don't know how I'm going to heal this time
how I'll find someway to erase you from my mind
My hands are shaking
shaking so bad
I'm struggling to put into words this type of sad-mad
There's something worse than being ****** over by someone else
and that something is ******* over yourself
I ripped open my wounds and poured the salt in
I sabotaged myself again.