I haven't been drawing lately.

but I have been
swimming through a lake
of forgetfulness
and loosing sight of who I was
I forgot
just for a second
that second bleeding into the next
dancing on the edge of change
who am I now?
the same as always?
or a drunken, high, working mess of an adult
but it works being slightly homeless
and falling into something
I wasn't expecting.
Change is different.
and growing up *****
why did I only see this now?

I haven't been drawing
and I need to keep these chubby hands busy
while I am figuring out what we call life.

I haven't been drawing
so I grab a pen
and remember who I was.