I can get so lost in music that I find myself feeling the emotions
of every key the pianist plays
and every word the singer sings as if he is singing at my funeral
it's like i am there
watching myself getting burried 5 ft under ground
and it scares me that I might be there one day,
not feeling, not breathing, not living

But then
I wake up of this vague dream
and I feel so blessed
to be breathing and to be alive
to feel things and see things
the beautiful things in life
and the sad things
**Because I am alive and I should enjoy every moment of it, I am too scared to die.