i really don't know anymore.
these feelings lately have consumed me and put me in the mindset that all i'm doing to myself is simply screaming deeper and deeper into the depths of the ignorant darkness.  nobody can hear me. the louder my screams become, the more engulfed i become in the sea of eternal darkness, the sea of eternal darkness that has no shoreline. the sea of eternal darkness that no ocean liner dares to trek across.  screams can't be heard from the bottom of the ocean.  the ocean doesn't know it's swallowing you. the darkness doesn't know you want to let the light in.
wake up wake up wake up wake up
my body aches my head hurts my hands have blood on them
my legs are shaking my torso is cut a little bit too deep
my eyes are bloodshot my heart is at my feet
why did this happen why did it happen to me why did you do it why why why why
why did you have to hurt me why did you have to send that bullet straight through my ******* heart why did you have to make me feel worthless
who are you why did you have to do this to me
the sun isn't shining any longer my life is almo