well, i want to live an excellent life. i wanna be able to go to sleep with a smile and wake up with that same smile. maybe a smile brighter than that. but if i dont, then i hope you're there to help me regain my smile back. i guess what im saying is that an excellent life is a life with you. life has fears but its so funny how my fears revolve around you. i fear of falling in love. i love you now but if i feel myself falling. my feelings will be so much more stronger than what they are now and if i lose you i guess i'll feel like dying because when we have our temporary breakups i feel like i lost my world. i dont plan on losing you and if somehow someday you catch me off guard and leave i guess that will be my fault because i didnt try too hard. but im going to make sure you stay because i know who i have and who i have is so ******* amazing and brilliant.