one time
I took it farther than expected
(fits of numbness; fury
rattles me & fingers trembling
fumble with straight edge
razors. no bullshitting around)
yeah let's be honest I liked it
when it ran down my leg
in streams so fast & flooding
foot soon an island in the
puddle spreading around.
but the relief & satisfaction
dulled & shifted to panic
when realization struck
that daddy would find me
a burden & find me more ******
than previously suspected;
panic that I'd have
to ask for help.