“I’ll never be the girl I once was. I’ll never laugh the same, hope the same, or love the same.”
“Good” I say. “That girl was weak and pathetic. Look how far she got you.”
Brutally honest
My heart aches saying it
But my mind reminds me
She’s not the same person she once was
Her shoulders deflate with the weight of shame
Eyelids heavy with contact
I try to explain, to reason
“You swam in a river of regrets,
Did you expect not to get wet?
That there would be no consequences?”
“I expected to get wet but never to drown.”
“But you jumped in without any lessons.”
“I know. I just didn’t expect the water to be so murky. It looked so beautiful reflecting the pale blue sky.
It all seemed
Limitless."
“You disturbed the surface causing a ripple effect. I tried to warn you that many drink from those waters.”
“I was a faithful consumer. There religiously every day.”*
“But the owner never changed the land to private though, he left it open to the public.”
It was all a riddle
The perfect chemistry of words
Describing the relationship
Of a boy and a girl
A boy who just didn’t want more
Who didn’t want the commitment of a girl
A girl who gave everything
With the promise of nothing
A girl I used to call best friend
But that same girl that used to finish my sentences
Is now among the hundreds if faces I pass in the halls
Out of it I’ve learned more
About myself and this selfish world
Love is not patient
And it is not kind
It will leave you devastated
In its absence
And powerless in its presence  
On your knees you’ll wonder where you went wrong
And honestly, you went wrong for ever falling for it
For ever believing it would make you love yourself
Cause without self-respect, self-appreciation and loyalty
Love will demolish you
Turn the ones you love most into strangers
and I can only hope I can be save from falling
To it depths

will you save me?