the metamorphosis of my womanhood was a spectacle. ******, monster, muse. gather the lovers to the hallway. not just the lovers, but the priests, the hunters, the mothers. gather them to the hallway, to the sacristy, to the bathroom. horror in the mirror. oily perfume. inserting a ****** beneath a crooked cross. wood touched by dust, body touched by blood. horror. sleeping bag in a bathtub. growing a tail. loving my tail. searching for pills on the floor. heaven, eyelash, beauty mark. more blood. gather them. let them know one week. let them be god. god, skip the years. watch it, like a movie. like a movie i will feed you, scene by scene, knowing you will change my name.