i hope i stop missing you some day . it’s not even you, it’s the you i remember
he loved me , so endlessly, that after every inconvenience i wish for his embrace years later
i hope one day, your memory doesn’t sour my day, and i’m able to just be not miss the him that you were
i hope i stop replacing you, bitterly, being confused when it fails
i don’t want to meet anyone like you, or someone completely opposite, or to date you now, i want him.
take me back, to when we met before me, before you, to him and her , years ago.
i want to stand under the tree in the corner , ride in your car down the winding dark roads. i want to hear him swear to never leave, one more time . hold my body while i sob, stop the shakes, one more time.
i ache for him everyday. sobbing. you can’t give him to me ever again, can you?
i want to know peace. i want to be at peace. i want to feel free.