nestled in my heart
i haven’t seen her in a long time
years
hidden there
relaxed and cozy or chained up?
for over three years my feelings were dull
now they are back , she is back

she is convincing me he is gone
its one week i tell her
it’s normal. no big deal
to her though,
now that she is free
now that she can tell me how to feel
this week is a forever

i think i ache not because of one week apart from the person i love
but because she’s finally out
and is using this to feel

i am too happy for her
i shut her in for too long
so for this one week
she wants me to feel
that ill never be full
wishing for wholeness