The road is darker in front of me and sometimes I feel myself growing comfortable in the darkness and at times giving up and befriending the darkness.

Maybe I've let my oil run dry?
Maybe I've hid my one talent too long and now I can't seem to find it.

Honestly I just want some temporary relief from the heartache that I feel. Nicotine, ***, drugs, alcohol.

I sometimes just want to feel numb and lay down forever.