I will hate you as
long as you live!
NO matter what
you do or say
I will NEVER forgive.
Your not my mother
as of Today

Hatred
in a heart
Is destined
to rip it apart
You expect this
from a child
A teenager
willfully and wild
Inability to forgive;
festers, and grows
What you reap
you shall sew

Feeding
these feelings
is all she knows.
When a mixture of
childhood memories
Are twisted
fact and fiction
distorted with time
Love turned to hate
she is no longer mine

Physiologist today
Play the blame game
An off-spring’s
behavior
Rest solely
On the parents;
Unloved, uncaring
absent parents
Never sharing

However
In her case
that’s not true
A weekend, dad
and a  step-father
She never appreciated
what she had
Much love
in a mostly
happy home

Her Memories,
stories ,fabricated.
to deflect
her irrational  
behavior.
I did not teach
her to lie and steel,
She needs to rely
on a narrative
to circumvent
The way
she treats
her children,
Their traumatic ordeal

“It!s not about
what is REAL”
“It’s about
what I feel”
However, when
I mentioned
let’s talk
to your
Phycologist together!
Absolutely never
of course Not
that would expose
the whole
ball of  wax
That says a lot!

How about the way
I feel!
What about
My ordeal
A Disabled
Mother
Elderly abuse
swept under the rug
I’m Afraid
of her aggression
Add thirty years
of built repressed
unadulterated
hate and rage

Forgiveness,
turn the page
I’m guilty
Of many things
Of letting her hit
abuse me
I became
her whipping Post,
physically, emotionally
I am guilty of
Not holding
her accountable
For her actions.

The abuse
verbal and physical
Demons are fed
with time apart
Time for HATE
to harden the heart

parents are at fault
for many things
I was a young mother
Children don’t come
with instructions
Convinced by these facts,
In all the qualities I lack
This realization
will not change a thing.
The past is the past.

How can I help my child
To see, to know ,accept
a good upbringing
not perfect by no means
Dealing with a willful child
Stubborn
, a war of wills
Always determined
to get her way
I use to say
“this is a difficult age”
My husband reply
“You say that every year”!

Start with accepting blame
The past cannot be changed
Remains of the past
stunt reality and  
create delusion of present
that will not
meet your Needs
expectations and desires
Defeatist mindset
present quandary  
A bleeding heart  
for all to  see
a narcissist
plays the
victim’s game

This is a tragic tale of a broken relationship. My life long friend cannot seem to work it out with her adult child. Most give up walk  away but she keeps trying