you want me to be yours
i want to be my own
So i sit and watch you breathe.
somebody to kiss
somebody to lay next to
you don't want to hate me,
no-one does, what is this ?
i'll leave and go home,
i can't be on my own cuz guilt eats and it gulps and I'll weep in the new house i never knew i had
my life in guilt, my life in culpability, in swallowing dry, in choking over Tuesday so Wednesday morning I'm glimmering.
It can't be all bad,  good has to come- she said life is proportionate
where am i then?
i plead to you in the sheets ruffled and i bent and shaking, i beg you to understand im undeserving you sigh
You've heard this many many times, you're tired and I see you arriving exactly where i was afraid to see you
"please just be my friend and don't resent me" and "forgive me" 19 and apologising for living.