could it be that it is just the hidden pain in growth that keeps me from seeing we are to be marvelous in end
or do the caterpillars in cocoons feel pain as their bodies dissolve and live on conscious with nothing but their stored energy and their miraculous, thinking minds
stewing with memories of their youth gaily, living in their past before they decide to climb to their future
i have been well too acquainted with my shell or chrysalis, or prison i forget why i am here and where i am but i know i put myself here
it is to grow but is it for good? am i a moth, or a butterfly i often wonder in reprise, i distract myself i'll be eaten by birds anyways, if that is any consolation
will my wings spell out a name or someone's initials or a skull with empty eyes will i be orange, with red or white, with nothing will i be blue
i don't think i will enjoy my emergence i don't know if my fellow caterpillars will i know that i didn't enjoy my metamorphosis
i only know that i have enjoyed my past and i was in excitement making my shell we do not enjoy our future it is not certain if we will enjoy making it
but i do hope, when time comes i'll have a fellow winged friend to circle around with and i do hope, then in our hard-earned freedom we enjoy the flowers we previously couldn't reach
i know, in time i will face the rain once more
i hope, do hope that it will be in confidence knowing i am among them in the sky