Today I woke at 5 again to the hooting of the owl
the window left unclosed each night so I can hear the stream
The rain was heavy beautiful to wash away the tears
The rain are the tears I cried for you for the last 40 years
The cool November air is here
It's soft and gentle chill  
Makes me feel so warm inside to know
I'm close to you
No matter how cold my feet when barefoot I walk through
the cold and deep and earthy path the forest calls to me
The mushrooms are so plenty now the berries are so many
To see the little birds through the winters silence heavy.
The badger now has gone to sleep the deer close behind
But the wolf he's stays so strong and ready and the hare she still goes on
Still gazes at the moon at night wishes your return
Yet pushed away the badgers hopes to be a new discover
Now it's too late to try
To mend her broken heart
I'm sorry I didn't let you try for grief of losing you took my heart with you  took my life with you and I search so far to find you but I couldn't see the tears stopped me from seeing
the pain stopped me from feeling and the
Being unwanted stopped me from believing that anyone would ever want me again so I made sure they couldn't see me to never let them in so they could not hold me and you could not leave again