who said I had to grieve
who said I had to curl up and die
who said I had to obsessively remind myself of the small curves of your roughly shaven face
who said I had to hold you like I did when you would cry, pain in every tear that brimmed on your face
who said I had to kiss you endlessly and without stopping just to make you calm and serene
who said I had to leave you behind like a mother leaves her ******* son
who said I had to settle for your unworthiness
No one said it but me