Like ships in the night
We keep passing each other
Right on by
Tears welling in my eyes
The fear of you moving on
Replacing, perhaps even better
Me.

I take more medicine
Now on an airplane unable to
Try and strive to be
That higher level
Me
I'll be on this ride for a few hours time
Paid for internet
Try and detect the feelings best
I know I'll be going home
Facing how you aren't with me.

I remind myself of the kisses
Of the ***** words said to me
By men
The options that I have
The smoke show I've become
Everything you have ever wanted
And I just want
I want you to see
And hear it for yourself.

In time
In time
In time.

Sometimes I think back on all the terrible times
And remember how I contributed to it
I don't even feel like the same person.

It all feels like a faint history
With so much emotion
And a lot of love
We just weren't sure how to
Navigate.

I fly away
Like I seem to always be
I read a little bit of a book
To remind my mind, body, soul
To open.