So now what I feel like this has been my opening line For every poem I write Nearly every night.
With a clamoring crash All the walls to the house we built Came crashing down I think I might have taken a pair of scissors To the windowsills Just trying to feel something again Sick of the purgatory And the ultimate newness You didn't put your palm out for That happens after you break away From a lover you were building with.
So here I am now With my windowsills split My cat meows at our door endlessly Looking for sunshine and grass to eat And I got angry earlier With painful truths So he took out the already loose nails of the roof & now here I stand in the debris.
I hope he'll see the rumble & tumble Of me with the broken pieces of our love As I see a series of flashbacks Where I was young all was so complex, Intricate And he'll feel a deep mournful keeeeeeening Tremendous loss.
Hope? People speak of the virus spreading New strains Drank too much Blantons at the party Got sick all the next day, forgot my body Ordered more **** after vowing to cut back That's when I remind myself I will get on it But cut yourself some slack You've been doing your ******' best Only matters you know that.
Made some shrimp tonight after weeping into my mattress I have every right to hurt.