I am there but losing focus
And I cannot concentrate
Body goes numb, the throttle's wide open
All hands clear, defibrillate

Coming home, all I wanted
Was to see your loving face
But once again you're somewhere else
So you know I won't complain

I stay up by myself
And think of all the times
I cried myself sick
Sick of all your lies
Feeling like ****
Drinking just to feel alive
And still you never came
Came to dry my eyes

You got me ****** up
Acting like a weak *** *****
When I'm worth so much more
I'm sick of feeling like this
Sick of being so pathetic
Don't know who you're ******* with

I shouldn't give a ****
About a broke *** *****
Who can't even see the most obvious ****
All I asked
Was that you loved me back
And had my back
Like I had your back, baby
But I can't keep feeling bad
For your whole ****** up life
I think it's about time
That I start to live mine

And when you lose me if you cry
Just know I know how it feels
Cause I been through that ****
Way too many ******* times

So dry your eyes