How do I begin
To tell you how much I miss you
When you've never been more far away.

Do you remember when
You did everything you could to
Come to me
To reach for me
How even in our hardest
Most far away moments
We still knew it was worth it.

You've grown cold
And I've never felt more alone
I take this time to heal, to believe, to trust
To decipher and breathe through
The little hurts I've carried along
On my back
And I think of how much you have protected me
Wept for me
And how deep in the well of my being
I know we both believe in this
In us.

The time without you has felt so long
I haven't known how to speak
How to do this
I haven't known how to give us both
Freedom and peace
Simplicity, I know thats what we both want
And every minute
Every hour
I'm just striving to be so kind
Even when met with your nothingness
The nothingness I am trusting will pass
As we get the help we need
And deserve
To grow, to prosper
Together.

I miss you holding me in your arms
And I know we have both been so frustrated
You often would reassure me of all the time we have
And in my down moments of this
I can't begin to explain to you how this
Has very much brought out every single one of my fears.

I'm getting up and facing them
And I'm demanding them to be quiet
When they swirl around me like a blinding darkness
And it doesn't mean I'm always perfect with it
It doesn't mean I've got it all figured out
But I'm able to see the cracks
In their trembling unreal faces
And acknowledge the light within
That is growing stronger and stronger everyday.

I love you
I always have
I always will
I know you love me too
I know you always have
I know you always will.

Let's please
Recalibrate.