I wonder when
It will get easier

My eyes are heavy
Heavy more often
The pills are a sudden new entity
Trying to better help me find ecstasy
And I'm just here tonight alone in the house
In the heart of Echo Park
Where the homeless sleep on the earth
The dogs left outside for far too long
Cry and coo into the day, into the night
And I'm eating mac & cheese
Thinking about watching more twin peaks
And the mighty, ravenous love I have to share.

He found a spot
For himself
For us
He's setting it up so nice
At such a good price
Little spice
Throwing the dice
On us
Why can't I ever just
Why can't I let that be enough?

Its been a tough road
And he often references the past
And I'm just trying to leave all of that behind
Acknowledge it and release it
I just want to start again
I just wanted to start again
I just want to start fresh with him.

We haven't really touched in so long
And it seems to always become about what I'm not doing
And I feel like this little tiny doll
Discarded, forgotten
And today I just laid in bed all day
Worked because I had to.

The world has never felt so lonely
In so many ways
And in moments I'm just like wow
I made it
We made it.

He's gonna do and get back at that good work on himself
It took me all day but I came around to getting back to that good work
On myself too
And I have to recognize
We all must recognize
Not anyone in this world ever gonna make us whole.

Rest
Rest is near
Kindness is always the answer.