Trudging through the day Big enormous all consuming waves Of dark smoke seize up Like ravenous snakes they stretch Their mouthes so wide As to remind me of the bite That bite always so near When I get taken to a place Of no longer being able to think See Or feel clearly.
Its the night before Its the month of Its a time my body associates With being left How do I Surrender and allow myself to be Graceful Quiet Athletic So strong.
Writing It does help to write again I started a movie And whenever I reach for you It is often met with rebuttals When I approach you with so much need Showing you the torn parts of me I'm still just trying to pat and heal I'm still just kissing and caressing I'm still just trying to admit exist And let go of.
Night You show yourself into the world with Such clamor Such, the rest is shut down feeling Such so difficult in the time of Masks and 6 feet feeling I have no distractions I have so few distractions And he chalks up all of my episodes All of my pain All of my anger and sorrow I somehow am brave enough to show him He chalks them up as happening too many times For his liking.
So now what? Do I burn it all down into flames As I have a time before Or do I continue to let the unclear feelings pass Write instead Breathe instead Continue to break down Measure out Identify The way my soul and heart aches and ached Today.
Its difficult to make him see I'll never be able to get what I need Out of any man When I feel such ache
So how do I find and stable That wild unicorn pink maned Creature In me?