i always indirectly mention you, every year on this day.
i wonder why?
maybe it’s because i still feel undeserving of you.
until then, i won’t mention who you are.
but you hold a special place to me.
always.
i know you won’t ever know now,
but i’d like to believe you knew how much you meant to me.
i won’t ever be able to talk to you again, but i hope you knew how much i loved you.
unworthy.
that’s how i feel every moment i think about you.
they all knew you, but i- i couldn’t stand a chance.
neglect is something i never knew can hurt me so much.
i wish i could go back in time and seen you smile some more.
i’m ashamed.
i know you wouldn’t want me to feel this way,
but it’s very deserving of me.
your kind heart was too kind.
thank you for every hug and every kiss.
i will always and forever love you most.
i never knew i could create oceans,
but you, you made it possible.
and every year they come roaring back.