We will never understand each other's feelings
There's not enough words to describe the feelings we feel
Yet we show them through anger and mistakes
A broken trust and the pain that goes with it
The mistakes I can never correct
The pain I continue to have every night
I still feel nothing and I hate the lack of emotions I can have
Can you have emotions towards the lack of emotions?
I know you hated every time I couldn't answer for my mistakes
The answers that handed no help and no closure
I hated myself for the lack of help I gave
For the mistakes I made almost sent me to the grave
I still wonder if in five years there will be anyone left
Any one I can say, "Yes, I will stay on this land for you."
I will calm my steady hand
Raise the glass and wonder how many floors I'm on
What it truly takes to have a lack of emotions
For something always pulls me back, but they are growing old
Stress or disease will bring them down
I wonder if I will still be here in five cold winters