Sadness is a feeling I want to feel
Just as much as all the days I’ve felt happiness
Anger and pain, I wish to fully endure
A slow burn remedy, perhaps the only cure.

Words have been spoken, feelings have been hurt
Lie, deny, sugar-coat the ache as much as you wish
Time is running out, patience is running thin
Nothing quite like destroying your own kin.

Reached out as far as I could’ve ever tried
No one listened, no matter how hard I cried
I knew long ago this journey’s one hell of a ride
But now it’s brought me to my lowest, slowly killing me inside.

My two childhood heroes turned out as enemies
My safe space no longer becomes sanctuary
The place I grew up in grew out on me
Entrapped within familiar walls where once, I felt free.

The shadows that surround me become my friends
Conversations with ceilings ‘till I reach my wit’s end
Past demons resurface and become part of me
Entrapped in my own cage of emotions, or am I free?

I know now this road’s the loneliest journey to take
I am my own hero, my own friend, and my own fate
The warmth within my bones will be the only source of comfort
Time will eventually dissolve, the disappointment and the hurt.

The demons of my past, future and present
I shall celebrate them with arms open wide
Happiness, sadness, joy, pain, love and fear
These feelings are feelings I wish to forever endure