impressing
your breath on my neck was almost distressing
a matter of life
and death
and love  
couldn’t have been more pressing

now I’m drowning
in all the memories
of our bodies
suppressing
remembering your voice
****,
I cannot stop obsessing

with the silver lining beneath my eyes
and all the skies crashing down
you, my man, my love
how could you have lost your crown

****
me
god, I really tried
I left my pride and I cried and I lied
**** me
that‘s all you ever did
held on me tightly, rightly, oh so unsightly
and yet
somehow
I still never quite sufficed

spreading my arms and my legs and my skin for your charms
just so you could know love
just so you could feel unharmed

it was all devised
our unreal fairytale
how could I have been so stupid
how could I have been so blind

jesus
*******
christ