Hello my name is Artemis at least thats what I would prefer you call me
But thats only if you must call me anything at all
I'm a ghost and I mean that in the most simple way
Not everyone will see me and even those that do will never be certain that I exist
And this is exactly the way that I have chosen for it to be
To some eyes this reads as a challenge and I must ask that you refrain
I don't want to be found and you would be hard pressed to track me down now
You can't chase a fox that has been planning an escape route in these woods for as long as they can remember
I've been living on mirrors watching people threaten reflections
Though I'm not certain if its of me or them and I know they can't tell the difference
I don't know what I or anyone else did to make them so angry
But I'd be lying if I said I was pained to see them suffering
I don't take direction well and if you had taken the time to watch and listen you would've known
These blades didn't have to be so invasive
But when you come to me demanding what I've kept hidden what else am I supposed to do
I'm sorry for what someone else did to you but that person wasn't me
And I will never take the responsibility for it
My life isn't here for you to control I'm more than capable of making my own decisions
I don't care what you want for me it doesn't matter to me if you think I shouldn't be left alone
You don't have the right to tell me what is up to me and what isn't
I'll show you every time its out of your hands and if you decide to hold it in your teeth I'll tear them out
The absolute lack of understanding you displayed was astounding
Even more shocking your acknowledgment that you wouldn't listen to a thing I say
But in the hours that you harassed me you convinced yourself you still knew what was best for me
Well I'm without you now and I'm still not wishing I didn't cast you aside
I told you I didn't like being touched and that only made you more intent on it
And you still had the audacity to tell me you loved me
I will never be able to relay how relieved I am that you were never able to define what that meant
When I told you the gun was loaded and my hands weren't shaking I wasn't bluffing
Did you feel foolish for trying to call it or did you call me a ***** again and fall for your next victim
I built these boundaries for a reason and hollow offers and rage fueled fits won't get you any closer
Why do I have to explain that putting my safe place in jeopardy so you'll be my friend isn't worth it
You offer nothing and expect everything so how truly surprised can you be that this was the final outcome
It's only been a few days now but you're not the last one who has tried to talk their way in
And I'm tired I'm so tired of being interrogated by people who think they hold something over me
There is no dark secret waiting to be revealed and if you can't believe that you don't have to stay
I only wanted to prove to myself that if nothing else about me mattered maybe my thoughts could
Maybe there were people who would listen without me having to scream until I have a mouth full of blood
I want to know what its like to be heard quietly
But that's not what you wanted for me
~W.C.