Not sad but not completely happy and that is the way the world is.

When it is raining so hard I can't see out the window and even if I walk into the rain and feel the water on my skins, still parts of me are arid.

Even when I have saliva and I'm hungry and thirsty and get water I do not feel completely wet.

I can't remember the last time I didn't feel dry. Arid. Devoid.

One time I went in the Pacific Ocean in Santa Barbara and as the waves were crashing and my hair was salt, I still felt needing to drink.

I don't know what will un-dry me.