he called me "awesome" instead of "perfect"
and that means a lot to someone like me
because being me I know a lot about the word "perfect" and how much
I am
the opposite of that word

it means a lot for a charming boy to recognize
I am not perfect and instead to deem me worthy of a word that I can actually own up to

but alas I do not
I brush these small compliments aside
just as I brushed him aside
probably because I am
too aware of how unperfect I am
too aware of how unstable I am
too unstable to let this charming boy
become a part of my life

this being one of my most unperfect flaws
not being able to let someone as "perfect"
as him become a part of my
*perfectly unperfect life