So what is it now Nothing to be said or done Just hiking into the darkness Of an unprecedented time.
You've been slipping and sliding into my mind As I feel the heaviness, the weight Your absence, though I have befriended it The silence of you shutting the door When I hoped we'd be able to maintain Some kind of Peace I guess I always think I want that But with you, with you in particular I often would reflect on how We would have been better off As just friends.
So here I have found myself again I was getting to a good spot Of releasing, standing on my own Working through the moments of pain And I'm hiking through the forest in darkness No light in hand.
I hear the birds coo and caw Chirp out my window Everyone inflates themselves Like a blow up doll Or like that old clown punching bag My brothers and I used to hit With joy, with merriment, with catharsis As children.
Its time for more coffee Time to get something to eat I forgive myself And acknowledge the list of expectations The list of wrong doings The lists utilized to cause suffering Change? I'm not sure But I do see a common thread here And I do my best to not Drink it up like weary dust And just acknowledge
You don't know until you know And often times More times than probably not People are not your people.