All this space, all the fractals Appeared and hovered I watched them like holographic Pastel Or an ink blot black Fly me high up into the sky With a profound perspective A knowledge that sometimes Many times You have to go your own way.
Nothing looks quite like I thought it would And I'm here in the Alabama sunshine Just trying to believe in my grit Just knowing I've gotta fight for whatever is next.
I try to find peace and clarity The hallucinations and sparkling moving lights Watching plants extend and reach For me, for mine It breathed life into me How quickly things can change So you really cannot depend on anything.
I'm sometimes over here Wondering oh where, oh where I'd been crying the name out Of a man I know not And sometimes I fear its just going to be a parade Of never finding Never choosing Never being chosen.
Its never easy to see another one go I comfort myself with words of reminders And acknowledge the points within which I feel drained like a rain cloud ******* me dry And I look for happiness in other things Today I mostly just laid in my bed And in moments missed my ex's.
I wonder if they think of me Think of me deeply In this utterly strange Severally cinematic time And I believe the answer to that Is a very loud Thunderous And colorful Yes.
I release the spirit of the wanting The spirit of the darkness I've been letting hold me hostage I saw the glow and confusion Of devices And the hold they create on us all In our day to day.
Its so hard to know where to go from here As Sufjan reminds of Chicago's Cold bitter resilient beauty And I gaze out my window Knowing its gonna be okay Its gonna be okay.
I didn't know What it meant To be let go of so hard Until you shoved me away With such clapping I heard the sounds of hands Colliding And grieved the loss Of an audience member I just wanted to hold space Time Refuge Longevity And that was never Would never Could never Be you, Sweet Cole.
I wonder if you like my friends photos I wonder if you talk to them I wonder if you think sweet Or sad thoughts on me The girl you pushed away.
Do you remember the first photo we took together? I do. Neon Summer And we walked back As you complained about your ex And I remember When I first agreed to be your partner Proposed it even And I figured Why not He's shown up He's shown up And at that time I really needed that And maybe that was just enough.
Its much quieter in my world now Though drama seems to rear its head In a new place And I just long for silence I just long for respect I just long for the ease That I very seldom have felt And I know I'm ready I've never felt so ready For whatever is next.