sometimes i see these flashes
and they repeat themselves
a supercut of us
you’re lying there
still.
your feet warm
and i almost reach out for you
and i almost lose you
again.
what is it
you were saying
i catch the hoarseness
in your voice
out of this
nothingness.

a void
i pass my hand through
and it takes me back to
you,
you
again.

now you’re out of my bed
soft glowy being
i sigh
lost
lost inside you again.

your fingers
icy cold now
the cold burns through me
you’re going now
you went

away.

this coldness i feel
skin deep
purging my soul

pills foam at my mouth
i see your eyes
irises dark
knees collapsing
i bow down to you

my insides aching for you

you reach out for me
at last
two hands
soft

i feel alive in death