I try my best to feel nothing
And in that, I feel nothing
No pain, no loss, no disappointment
Or anger.
For passion is my middle name
Every emotion felt and expressed
With intensity beyond explanation

I get scared
That there’s no coming back for me
My broken heart cannot mend
Unlike yours
I just won’t survive
I’ll drown to a depthless death
Leaving an empty shell floating on the surface.
So I leave that switch off.

In all these, I am blameless
Entrusting my fragile heart to another
Is like free falling into an abyss
No landing guaranties
Only uncertainties

They sneak up on me sometimes
Leaving me in a daze
‘Till my body is slammed awake to reality
By my forever guarded heart
Then I fix up the cracked walls
And stay beyond reach.

You seem so certain
Every displayed emotions calculated
The next few moves seemingly planned
I am envious
All your wants seem before you
While I am constantly in search of certainty
Perfection in imperfection
like Chasing stars.