I just want to scream

Scream at her

Scream at her family

Collapse on the sea floor of my own tears

Drown in front of them

Die with one last scream in my lungs

Save that scream for God

Scream at God for letting this happen to me

WHY GOD?! WHY ME? WHY US? WHY HER?

And He will calmly tell me everything happens to make us stronger in the Lord

And I will Scream

All the way down to Hell

Not to Heaven. Thats where she is. I want to avoid her for the rest of eternity

But really I just need to scream