My brother just left my house
It sure is interesting to have a relationship with someone your entire lifetime
And more interesting is how that relationship changes over time
At first we didn’t get along too well
He was the baby until I came along 11 years later
He didn’t like that I think
Used to pull my pants down and hit me
hit me with the belt
Saying all the while that my mom and dad spoiled me
Letting me get away with everything
So he took it upon himself to dish out some justice
Revenge
Revenge for me being born

All the way through my childhood and into adolescence
It was like this
But you know
I didn’t see it like that at the time
It wasn’t until later
Looking back at my life did I realized that I was abused
Physically
Mentally
By my older brother

The hardest part about it was that I loved him
And yet he would do that to me
I suppose that hurt me the most as a child

The abuse finally culminated with me having a mental breakdown
That day I had ditched school with my girlfriend
My brother found me with her at my friends house
Takes me home and starts threatening me
Hitting me
I was terrified
And so I lost it
I was fifteen years old

The psychologist
The tests
The interviews
More tests

My mom almost admitted me to a group home
But my dad said no
Bring his *** back home he said

The surprise drug test
With the guy looking at my **** while I give a sample

And then the day came  when my brother and I fought
Me seventeen and him twenty eight
Throwing him off of me
To the ground
I jumped on him and punched him in the face
Over and over again

Now
Some thirty years later
Now that both of us are grown men
None of that really matters
Today my brother and I
We’re friends