I remember how
Irritated you would get with me
When I couldn't decide what movie or show to watch
You'd show me trailers
We'd finally settle on something you wanted me to see.

I remember the night
You were experiencing a week of deep depression
You would later thwart onto me
I brought over take out
Your favorite
So afraid of losing you
Walking on glass
Because you couldn't handle
How I needed you there
How I shared my plights with you
It was just always too much.

We tried to watch your favorite movie
We didn't make it far
I couldn't stomach the violence
That was about to occur
To a helpless female character.

I remember you tried to argue with me about it
I voiced just needing you to let it go
And it was in that moment
I could feel you pick you
Over me.

I don't blame you for choosing yourself
I don't blame you for needing boundaries.
I blame you for not communicating
I blame you for not sharing your intimacy
I blame you for not being vulnerable
I blame you for not knowing how to stand up strong next to me
I blame you for being mean.

I know I'll be processing this one for a while
As I move on along
As I move on along again
Without you.