I swear I am feeling the same way.  
Unwanted and unsure now and that not how I should feel.
Every night I try my hardest to make myself think it’s just my depression or anxiety.
This is why I was afraid of loving again.
Cause it the same things each time.
I get used to things and they faded away. And feels changed on a relationship.
I really tried not to get used to going to sleep on the phone, saying I love you , and hoping to hear from you.
But I did.
Now I sit up every night trying to fall asleep on my own.
I started hiding my feelings and just accepting these feelings and thoughts. Now I’m just waiting for the day, you don’t wanna be with me.
I know that it is coming. I feel insecure, crazy, n unwanted.