Trying to understand why thing seem so important
trying to understand the pressure raining down on me like soft leaves falling onto crisp green grass
trying to figure out why some beats stick in my head all night while they come and go and flow when
I'm least trying to hear music
I'm trying to break the glass ceiling that I didn't know was placed over my head within a matter of minutes
I'm trying to become better at taking deep breaths when I can't breathe or feel
I'm trying to get better at answering him when he says, "baby, talk to me"
most of the time, I can't say the awful things I'm thinking out loud more or less scared to say the things that I would need to lean on someone whom might not want to listen to the *******.
Its so hard to need someone
Its easy to be alone.
Its easy to be with yourself
wrapped up, lost in yourself.
I'm trying everyday to be better.
Better than yesterday better than a few minutes ago
with every giggle that's released
or
cig, i know i shouldn't smoke
Im trying to take one last puff
think more of how to say things
and to love with all of my heart
so, I don't have to try.