I don't understand p e r s i s t e n t I was fine two minutes ago u n c o n t r o l a b l e I know I'm okay o v e r w h e l m i n g but e x c e s s i v e I can't i r r a t i o n a l breathe d r e a d why did d i s a b l i n g I even say p o u n d i n g h e a r t that s w e a t do that t r e m b l i n g why am I doing this s h a k i n g I can't s m o t h e r i n g do this c h o k i n g someone c h e s t p a i n please d i s c o m f o r t help me n a u s e a save me d i z z y I can't stop u n s t e a d y am I l i g h t - h e a d e d crazy? f a i n t am I c h i l l s dying? h o t f l a s h they all n u m b n e s s think that t i n g l i n g a freak d e r e a l i z a t i o n no one will d e p e r s o n a l i z a t i o n ever l o s i n g c o n t r o l love me “ g o i n g c r a z y ” why does it feel like I'm d y i n g STOP N O STOp N o STop n o Stop . . . stop . . please . just...stop