will my body be able to home a human being?
will my body grow like this?
will my feelings grow when i'll feel that?

i was never attached to you
through any cord
but when i look at my arms,
my hands,
i see you.

i see a tiny little purple bunch of cuteness
i first said "are you sure he's ours?"
but then i held you
and i knew.
you're mine.
and i swore.
i will protect you from it all.

these hands
these arms
have held you
have hugged you
have caressed you
have bled for you when i got carried away cutting those potatoes while cooking for you
have caught you when you fell
have pushed you.

away now. my body is empty.
no one to caress
no one to hold
not like that.