It was those late hours and those lonely nights that she took a step back, and doubted herself. And she hated herself for those nights. Because she it was in those quiet doubts that she proved to herself that she was not worth trusting. Because her spirit was not yet in control and her demons got the best of her and she failed again.  But she will try again. She will start again. And tomorrow will be a new day so her new start begins in this moment. In this moment she will begin again learning to love herself.  In those dark quiet hours she prayed, and pleaded and released, and surrendered and she began again to believe in her strength