I know you love her and she loves you
and she’s all you can think about
even when you’re with me.
But I can’t stay away from you.
You’re all I’ve ever wanted,
you’re sarcastic and arrogant and adorable and intelligent
and you’re skinny and your hair is curly and your eyes…
they’re like the ******* ocean after a storm
all green and blue and swirly
they glow and I can’t help myself from gazing into them
whenever I’m with you.
And it hurts so much
to be in love, infatuated, whatever you want to call it
I feel so happy when I’m with you,
and melancholy when you’re gone
when you’re with her
when you’re thinking about her
when you’re planning your future with her.
and I think you and I would be perfect together
so perfect.
People tell me you like me,
people say you try to push me away because your feelings scare you
because you’ve put three years of love into this relationship
with her
but you only see her four weeks a year
and you see me every day
and I get you
I put up with you, and I love it,
even when you’re being wonderfully difficult and annoying
because I think I love every single thing about you
and all I know is that I want to be with you
I want to call you mine and I want to be yours
I want to be in your arms and play with your hair
I want to listen to your secrets and tell you about my dreams
I want to laugh with you and cry with you
I want to sing and dance and make music with you
and I want you,
all of you,
every day.