I remember darkness
Feeling alone
Not knowing what to do
Not knowing if I should tell

Cramped in a small space
Maybe with someone else
But mostly not
I was alone

I did something
anything
I don't know
But I was alone

I tried to ask why
but I was greeted
with only hurt
and pain

I was alone
because I wasn't alike
I wouldn't let things go
I wouldn't say, "Ok"

It was dark
It was small
I was scared
I was alone

I told no one
I don't know why
I just didn't
It's how it worked

I would go everyday
Don't know why
I didn't even try
to say anything

If that day
I was even worse
I felt the sting
of a belt

It hurt
physically
emotionally
everything

I don't know why
I didn't say
anything
ever

I remembered
Later
In high school
I don't know why

I had counseling
depression
medication
and the like

It was hard
I'm still coping
But I can't
forget