i feel my chest pound like its going to cave in i feel my heart start beating fast yet again i cannot breath i cannot conceive a single thought that is on my mind like its on repeat as it grinds i cant control my thoughts they have me in chains like i was bought i do everything i can to not think about things but they have me ******* in all of their strings so they eat me alive no matter how hard i try to thrive i keep them in books up high on that shelf until im just a shadow of my former self